Lonely girl, living in a lonely world...

So, I recently left my dear Fort Myers, and all my friends... And now, I'm lonely. I don't want for them to find me, and my boyfriend Tom, because we choose to leave in secret so child support can not find him until he's found a new job. Don't sit there going "Oh what a low down sneak of a man" Once he gets a job, he's sending the money in again. But until then, we're on the down low.

I just miss people. I miss calling up a couple of girlfriends every night just to bullshit and talk about sex, love and life. So, you're my new girlfriends, people of the internet! Let's start with how things have been. Oh, and I'll be talking to you, like we've been friends for years... Bear with me.

Since I left, things went from rock bottom bad, to fairy tale good. Remember how Thomas was ALWAYS mad, and we were ALWAYS fighting, because I never seemed to matter to him? How every other girl got more attention, and more of his time than me? Well, at first, up here, things we're like that as well. I felt neglected, and unloved, and thought it all would fall apart right in front of me...

Well, I was wrong. We still aren't an official couple. But I stay hopeful... We go on dates now, not super frequently, but enough. And they're amazing. We can laugh together, talk much more openly with each other, and share stories that normally, would be uncomfortable. We talk some about a future, that appears to have us together. Not much, and I try hard not to read to far into it... All the secrets, have finally come out into the open, on both of our sides. We now know, and accept that neither of us are perfect. But we try so hard for each other. This weekend, should be promising. I'm so hopeful. And so blissful. And as always, blessed.

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I have been blessed,
and I feel like I found my way.
I thank God for all I've been given,
at the end of every day.
I have been blessed.
~Martina McBride
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