Reality is better than any dream ♥

So, while this Memorial day weekend was rather uneventful, it was still good. Thursday night, at midnight, we went to see Prince of Persia. It was pretty good, but didn't fallow the game quite right... The ending was where it should have began. Still, highly recommended, go see it! Friday, I don't think we did anything, except maybe go walk through the mall... Saturday, we had plans, they fell through. You'd think that would suck... But we cuddled in bed all day watching Super Natural and Fireflies. I love love love those shows.

Sunday, we went to this sliding rock. It's a long stretch of rock, with water steadily coming down it, and you can literally slide down, like a water slide or a slip n slide. And it's crazy fun. Except for the creepy salamanders that like, fallow me. It was a lot of fun...We got rained out. I secretly love the rain though, so it's okay. Til my stupid ass car flooded. I have a convertible, the back window has fallen out. Rain makes me her bitch.

And Monday, was also slow. Getting ready to head to New York, we went to the mall, got some amazingly delicious food, looked around Wal-mart,came home, and slept. it's been lazy, but that works for me.

Get mad, then get over it. - Colin Powell

So, tell me if I'm being ridiculous. There has been a family even planned in New York, since December... And Thomas and I are due to go to my parents in SC, and ride with them to New York, cause my car can't do it. Well, then there was talk of Tom and I riding with my aunt, Caroline. Which Tom liked more, because his track record with her is better. Well, THAT got fucked up, and we're back to riding with mom and dad, LIKE ORIGINALLY PLANNED! And now, he's refusing to go, because he doesn't want to be in a car with my parents for 12 hours. But that's what it was suppose to be in the first place. So what's the big deal?

I feel like he's mad cause he didn't get his way now. And since it won't be how he wants it, he won't go. I offered for him to go with my aunt, and I'll ride with my parents... But he doesn't want to be separated from me. And, I can't come up with anymore ideas. He has this whole reasoning, as to why he won't go, so he's justified it in his own head, I still think it's dumb. So, now he's just plain not going. But he hasn't told my parents that, and I don't feel it's my responsibility, plus, I don't wanna be bitched at BECAUSE he doesn't want to go. Because they wasted $160 to board the animals, which if he's not going, he could stay at their house to watch. The fact that it's extremely rude, since we've already RSVPed. And, they just paid for a full suit for him.

I'm really, really upset about it. Not just because I feel he's being a little childish. But because, it's really, really, important to me, that my family meet him, and he meet my family. It's important to me that the members who already like him, continue to like him. And I think by not going, they'll see it as a temper tantrum, and decide, maybe he's not as good a person as they thought. He is, he's a great man, really. But he's obviously not seeing things clearly right now. Plus, now what? I go alone, to be completely bored and lonely, and think about and worry about him the whole week!

I don't want to force him into going, and I probably could. Well, not force him... God knows, I can't -make- him do anything! But I probably could bitch and whine and cry and guilt him into going. But I don't want it to be that way. I want him to go, because it's important to me. I mean, Caroline is married to Mike, and Mike and dad disagree on a lot of things to, maybe not as strongly as Tom and dad, but still, they disagree, dad's just hard to get a long with sometimes. but he still does all sorts of things with my father, because he has too for Caroline, to make things simple, to keep the peace. He doesn't like it, but he does it cause he loves her. Sacrifice. It's important. Am I being dumb? Help.

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If you're angry at a loved one, hug that person. And mean it.
You may not want to hug - which is all the more reason to do so.
It's hard to stay angry when someone shows they love you,
and that's precisely what happens when we hug each other.
~Walter Anderson

When a man sends you an impudent letter,
sit right down and give it back to him with interest ten times compounded,
and then throw both letters in the wastebasket.
~Elbert Hubbard
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Lonely girl, living in a lonely world...

So, I recently left my dear Fort Myers, and all my friends... And now, I'm lonely. I don't want for them to find me, and my boyfriend Tom, because we choose to leave in secret so child support can not find him until he's found a new job. Don't sit there going "Oh what a low down sneak of a man" Once he gets a job, he's sending the money in again. But until then, we're on the down low.

I just miss people. I miss calling up a couple of girlfriends every night just to bullshit and talk about sex, love and life. So, you're my new girlfriends, people of the internet! Let's start with how things have been. Oh, and I'll be talking to you, like we've been friends for years... Bear with me.

Since I left, things went from rock bottom bad, to fairy tale good. Remember how Thomas was ALWAYS mad, and we were ALWAYS fighting, because I never seemed to matter to him? How every other girl got more attention, and more of his time than me? Well, at first, up here, things we're like that as well. I felt neglected, and unloved, and thought it all would fall apart right in front of me...

Well, I was wrong. We still aren't an official couple. But I stay hopeful... We go on dates now, not super frequently, but enough. And they're amazing. We can laugh together, talk much more openly with each other, and share stories that normally, would be uncomfortable. We talk some about a future, that appears to have us together. Not much, and I try hard not to read to far into it... All the secrets, have finally come out into the open, on both of our sides. We now know, and accept that neither of us are perfect. But we try so hard for each other. This weekend, should be promising. I'm so hopeful. And so blissful. And as always, blessed.

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I have been blessed,
and I feel like I found my way.
I thank God for all I've been given,
at the end of every day.
I have been blessed.
~Martina McBride
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